Well its being long that i have written anything in my blog, last being on Valantines day well anyhow today i was feeling desperate to write, so here it goes.. My life is going through lots of Up's and down's. anyhow i never expected life to be simple but then all i expected was some peace of mind. After my accidents things had actully changed... from my financial positions to social .. i hardly socialize these days. In March i got my car back from the workshop and the bill a whooping 1.5 lacks. though i was only suppose to pay some 18k from my pocket rest everything was taken care off by insurance company. but 18k was a pain in ass to arrange. i am actully in financial mess and no one is to be blamed except me myself. i somehow arranged the money ( well again dad comes to rescue me from this, and yes this was not the first time) but then i should have been more responsible.

 

Yesterday i just got my bank statement and was just giving it a glance. i get my salary every first day of the month and by 10 its all gone. theres hardly any money left in my account apart from 2 figure amount which anyway i cannot take out from the ATM machine cause the least amount being 100. i cannot even think off affording a date forget doing nightout with frnds or going out of city for some fun. i should have priorotize my spendings not just buying anything that i want or wish. I never took this simple point into consideration that liquidity of money is major boost(in my case relief) to a person. now i actully feel that i should have more liquidity. i have to wait for months just to buy things like jean.. shoes... a dinner outside.

 

Just to refresh about my stupidity ...I brought thunderbird on EMI, though the EMI was well in budget and i actully used to save some money at the end of the month after my spendings and actully was relieved. Aat that time i used to pay just the EMI of my ZEN and then from next month THunderbird EMI added to the list. It was all OK as i was able to save a very little amout from my salary. and then in OCT i brought another car. and after that i can see the money in my account till 10 of everymonth but cannot take out even a single penny. its just like a showcase things are there but u cannot touch it , you cannot take out even for some time, you cannot do anything except watch them again and again just too see them vanish at 10th.

 

everymonth there is just enough money for 6 EMI that i pay. OK i know i have done blunder and there is no way out that i can see. just when i was suppose to pay 18k i relaized that how much in deep trouble i am in. i wasnt able to pay mear 18k myself. every day i end up asking money from my dad for my day to day expenditure.

 

and for another news my ABN-AMRO bank ppl transfered my account from ZERO balance to a Flex account where i am suppose to keep minimum 10K in my account everyday. well thats one shit. in march they charged me 551 for not maintaining the min balance and dishonoured one of my EMI.. damm those ASS HOLES i wish i can rip them apart whosoever is responsible for this. they said they have sent me a letter over the conversion but i never recieved any. its so easy for them to say that they have sent me a letter and can get away. never being there concern that we the customer recieved the letter or not. apart from that 551 rupees of penelty i was agained slapeed with 385 as a checque dishonour charges that i was lucky enough to fight and get it reversed. i mean c'mon 900 bucks they charged me and with no fault of mine. 900 bucks i cud have brought a jean, or couple of T shirts... may be a dinner... ok i cud even have afforded a date, cud have socialized. just now i enquired and they have charged me another 385 as cheque dishounour charges.. why ?? those stupid EMI bank presented the cheque again for clearing. FUCK them dont they know i am already short of funds. again gave me a blow.. DAMM!!!! now i understand the meanest thing on this earch is BANK...

 

thats it!!!!! i am cool now.. my eyes are back to white from red. have learned one thing never to get into this EMI WEB again.. but i actully trust myself that i'll again get into this.. THE WEB if i may call.. once you are inn you can never leave it... anyway i'll make my life more streamline noe GOD BLESS ME.

 

ok folks am off will go to 32nd milestone and play couple of bowling game to take my stress and pressure off.. i badly need that. then if there is enough time i'll pop in my gym for some excersise. and then off to my place.

 

till next time ciao

5th of February, the day I would like to forget or better if I can go back in time and can do couple of small amendments in my past life. 5th February, one of the worst chapter in the book of my life. The day I met with the worst of the accident in my life. Though I have been a pretty accident prone person the whole of my life. But this one had made me realize the real value of life. For the first time I met with an accident with friend of mine with me. That moment I realized that it was me actually who was driving there life with the steering in my hand. If something had happened I would have been responsible for the result and especially when my parents were unaware that I am with some one and a not alone. Apart from that because of my pathetic driving I banged by just 2 months old car that I brought, brought after years of wait.

 

5th feb, early in morning I left my place at around 4 to my friends place were I picked her up as I was suppose to attend one of my friends wedding in chandigadh and she has to spend some time with her friend. So by 5 I was there at Delhi by-pass all ready to vroom to chandigadh in my new car. The early morning was fun to drive, mostly the roads were empty so I was able to drive fast rather pretty fast on some occasions I touched 160 or 170. Chassed a merc who was driving the car with a rear flat tire. I tried to bring this matter to the drivers concern that the rear tire is flat and change it, but rather that a$$ hole thought I was trying to race with him. Now who the hell wud race with a merc on the highway with 1.6 L engine. Neways he tried to speed away but then may be he was not a good driver. I was able to stop him after couple of min chase and told him that we are not trying to race damm it just letting u know that the tire is flat. Whole time I was wondering if by chance the tire got ripped off from the wheel the car will get out of control and the result can be anything. Neways after that the journey was cool we stopped over for 5-10 min and then started again. I was able to cover some 260 KM in 3 hours and 10 min. and it was like wooow... was fun to drive never knowing that this excitement will lead me to some sorrow moment or rather worst moment in my life. By 8:30 we were in her frnds house. Couple of friends also joined us the same time I was parking my car, from Amritsar. So we went up had our breakfast, some chat. She (my frnd's frnd) was to get married on 13th, yesterday. So we had a good time chatting and eating. As I was suppose to attend a meeting I got off and started getting ready for the occasion. By that time I think it was already 10 something. So got ready and left for my friends wedding. By 2 I go back from there. Rested for some time, in the mean time my friends they were planning something for the wedding. Some songs, tricks etc... We decided at 3 PM that’s its time to leave back for Delhi. So within 20 min we all were in our respected car and left to come back.

 

I started driving and we passed the border, just after we passed border fellow friend slept and so it was pin drop silence in the cabin. I started feeling dizzy. Stopped over washed my face and then back to the drivers seat. It was 6 in the evening that I saw a sign board stating "DELHI- 112 KM" and I was like kewl another 1 hour and back to home. just the same moment I saw a blue bulky auto rickshaw not the one for passengers but the one used for loading standing on the side waiting to cross the road. In the mean time I was overtaken by an Indica. As my friend was sleeping so I never bothered trying to over take him as for the first time I felt the sense of responsibility that this is a high-way and being a congested road I should not drive fast. But I never saw that I was already driving at 90 KMPH it was at that time that the auto rickshaw started crossing the road. I don’t know wat the hell he though before driving. The car front of me was lucky and somehow it ditched the accident but it was me the poor guy who rammed my car in it.

 

It was that time that I literally felt my brain working to the maximum. 1000 thoughts struck me in that single second. And I think I was still couple of seconds away from colliding with the auto. Brakes were all pressed hard as hard as I can press... but then I knew the car aint gonna stop cause I was at such a high speed and in such a great momentum. In those thoughts half must be on how the collision can be avoided, what decision to take, which way to steer... and half were those weird things coming to mind about accident how will I tell my parents that I have met with such a fatal accident... how much damage will be there, will we survive this accident. Probably half mind was thinking about the current state and half was thinking about the future... I can still feel the same chill in my spines about the thought, the thought of banging into that pathetic vehicle.

 

Just after that second that I collided and I collided damm hard. The auto was thrown away some 10-15 feet’s from my car and my new car was all screwed up, screwed up to the hell. I got out and without another thought I started beating the driver, which I shouldn't have done. The guy was old man, poor. But then the very next minute I stopped my hand and got back to see the condition of my car. It was BAD, very bad indeed and then I thought about my friend. Is she fine?? Hoping that nothing should have happened to her. I opened the door and was relieved to see doing fine. Nothing had happened to her and to me I had some sprain in my right wrist and thumb. Rest it was all menace. Car won’t move an inch though nothing happened to engine luckily. But the left part was all damaged, the axle broke, fender was crushed... to summarize the whole left part was crushed. Police came and then there was a small scene. But I still curse myself for beating that poor guy knowing that I cannot turn back the time and whatever happened has happened.

 

Called the tow service to get my car towed back to Delhi. that damm person made me wait for 6 hours there before he arrived. And the whole 6 hours we were inside the car. And then something happened which I wanted never to happen... my mom called up asking where we are and things are fine. I tried to act normal as if nothing has happened. But I can not in any circumstances hide the fact to my mom that I had met with an accident. And then I opened the truth to her. I said " mom there is one thing, I had just met with a accident but I am alright and perfect" I cannot show my anger, my fear to her knowing that she will get depressed knowing that I have met with a accident. I tried to act OK that yes the accident was Severe but I am fine and in a good condition.  This was the best that I cud have done at that time not to let my fear haunt my mom. Told her that I have called the tow service and I’ll be there as soon as the truck will be here. Just after that my dad called... generally dad is cool about things like that cause he knows that I am a accident prone guy but to my surprise he was not cool this time... scolding me on the phone telling me that I am careless boy. Neways I can always understand that I have been nuisance all my life and this time I again have created a problem and tension among my parents. After 6 hours at 12 the tow truck came and we sat inside the truck while the guy loaded the car on the crane... and at 2 AM I was back to Delhi.

 

2 hours, the whole time I was cursing myself for something I wished never had happened. Always thinking why me there were other 1000 cars on the road but why only I was destined to collide. Why I am always the guy who gets into trouble, WHY WHY WHY.

 

A week has passed and everything is quite normal now. Still my parents living in fear cause of me that I might again met with another accident. I still feel guilty of being a nuisance all my life and still curse myself to throw my hands over that poor guy. Still feel ashamed for the trauma cause to my friend. All the time she was comforting me. She also was complaining about some pain in nose. But I am thankful to her for bucking me up all the time and not letting me feel low. May be cause of her, those 6 hours passed by in such an ease.

 

I WISH THESE THOUGHTS STOP HAUNTING ME!!!!!

I WISH I CAN CHANGE MY PAST.

Harmeet's wedding gonna be time which will be remembered by me and my frnds for a long long time.. for many reasons. For me the number one is that this was the time that i drove my car 450 km without any adult supervision as i was never alowed to drive on highways without my mom or dad as obvious my mom and dad are to cautions for me. second to none is we 4 frnds left delhi and that was one journey filled with lots of fun and i had a time of my life..

 

we 4 friends gathered at rahul's place as we have planed to visit or very close frnd harmeet's (harry) wedding. we all 5 ppl met for the first time on our first job respectivly which was here in gurgaon. Mango IT solutions was the name of the company. as we all were freshers and were on our first job ever so we gel'd together and had nice time working together. ok so for the history. we all met at 1:30 and by 2:15 we were all ready to leave.. every one called at there houses and not to forget there fience' as well and we left to Hanuman gadh a place around 450 km far from here.. it took us.. i mean me as i was driving, more than 10 hours to reach harry's home... the whole drive was fun we clicked photographs .. had snacks total masti and not to mention we talked whole 12 hours.... none of us got bored apart from a bit tired after 10 hours drive this was expected.

 

while driving we clicked many photographs some are sensored and not included here in this collection  but rest many of the pics have been uploaded to the photograph section.. it was about 12:15 when we reached harry's place.. it was deep inside the series of village .. i mean his village.. his village was 4th in the que and the road was pretty bad as expected for a village no concrete road inside.. and yes one thing that i'll never forget is that we were told to take a right turn from a small "pullia" (spoken as 'pu-li-ya') he he he he i mean a smal flyover ... how small no one knows... but it was bloody damm small just couple of feets long and the whole time we were passing from over it and looking for it.. we drive over this so called pullia some 3 times and we never saw it.. and the second thing was "nehar" a small river i swear we just looked every were for this nehar .. and no were we can see .... we asked so many people the way to harry's village every one told ... there's gonna be a pullia then naher and u take a righ turn then left .. i swear we died laughing once we cam to know about the pulia and nehar... actully for half an hour we were looking for pulia standing on that pullia ... and then we asked a noble man who told us the right way and we will alwayse be thankfull to that noble human being who helped us ..

 

And the time came when we find my frnd house... from that pullia till hsi home there was not a single person that we saw on the whole strech it was we 4 frnd in a car with no street lights nothing all black out ... i parked the car inside his home and went inside a pretty big room which was keot ready for we 4 frnd and harry ... with beds and blankets we all slipped inside our cousy beds with blankets above us .. had a cup of tea and in my case hot milk as i am not used to having tea.. and clicked couple of pics and slept.... early morning at 6 to my surprise everyone was wake up and started preparing for my frnds sagan a ritual they we perform.. apart from we 4 so called shehri ladke... it was so cold outside that even after waking up atleast i never wanted to move out of my bed and then harry came and told me that i better should park my car in there garage othwise kids will play ABCD.. over my brand new car and then tu rub it they will use some wood ...  in a flash i was up and moved my car to that garage ... and then we went to terrace of that house stayed under sunlight and enjoyed fresh jalebi prepared in home by halwaii .. very very tasty that was crisp and hot in cold day sitting under sun... clicked photographs there and then we all went to take shower and get ready as the sagan was about to start.....

 

sagan started and we sat outside having breakfast.. bechara harry was all hungry the whole time and only after sagan had something to eat... the food was good though mostl it was sweets only... after that there was a next event of Drinks and to my surprise ppl over there had so much of alcohol.. from afternon till night i hardly remember that an one stopped ... rounds after rounds ... in evening i left to get my car decorate as it was suppose to be a doli and harry's wife will travel from her parents house to her hubby's house and my other frnds left to see the farm land known as "khet" i think it took us 2 hours and we were back to home by 8 i got a bit late as i have drive slowly with all those flowers on over my car.. and by the time i was there i heard that they have booked some orchastra with some dancers  .. and the show started first it was all quite every one sat .. ladies on one side and men on another andslowly slowly the colors started spreading out ... ppl started dancing and then the time came when the dancers were sent back inside and only we ... yes i mean me and my frnds with harry's family were on the stage dancing and having a blast ... we all got tired so we left just feel a bit comfortable we went to my car and sat inside as it was quite noisy outside and turned on a very relaxing flute music .. i slept on the seat maybe or 30 min and then some one say us ... probably thy must have frlt bad that guest are lying in there car so withen a min harry's elder brother came and told us that they have readied one room for us ... it was a small room made up of mud like a typical village house  ... but to my surprise v warm .... we all sat there had our food and then slept...

 

then the next day " De DAY " finally harry was getting married today ... and we all got up and got ready no time to loose as we were suppose to leave for the marriage at 9 .. but we got late... we reached the reception place at around 1 in afternoon... we had something to eat and then withen 15 min we left for gurudwara for lawa fere... lawa fere happened and we came back to the banqute had our lunch there .. and then again there were soome orchastra with dancers  but this time the dancers were damm cute .. i mean very very beautiful typical punjaban... wooow wat a sweet gal was she ... smilling and dancing ... we sat there and had cokes and snacks... and in evening we left for our home back here in hanumangadh.. ohh by the way the marriage has to happen at Ganga Nager .. some 70 km from our village .... ad wat a city it is ... we went inside the city to get flowers and all ... and had a small look at the city... from the banqute we left for gurudrawa again and then from there we went to harry's wife place .. over there we had a cup of tea and sat there for some time and then the time came.. when we finally were leaving for harry's place the crying ritual started ... we left there and came back to our home .. there we had another session of Gidda ... were the newly wedded gal had to dance.. with familly members.. i was too tired for that .. so we just went back after some time to our room and we were joined by harry elder brother .. we had soup there.. but we have to leave the place for dinner ... so thy had beds ready in the place we sat on the beds with blanket onn ... it was too cousy for me to resist sleep .. and in some moments i fall asleep missed my dinner ... one thing that i missed was decorating harry's bed for his first night ... i still regret that ....

 

in the morning by 10 we left back for delhi... it was such a experience that i may never forget ... the way we were given royal treatment by everybody... there hospitality ... and everything ... and then we all 4 frnds left back for delhi enjoying we had a stop in one of harry's uncle place .. we picked oranges from orange tree rested there .... and then again left for delhi ... this time it was a bit quite drive .. we allwere tired may be ... had our lunch in a road side small restaurent... and a small stop over in some field clicked pics there and to get some fruits ... and by 9 evening we were here in delhi ... dropped my frnds and left back to my place from there

 

wat a journey it was the whole 4 days just went by like a sec in a clock... i'll never forget this wedding for sure ..

 

Ok guys i am writing this journel after a very long long time i know but then i was busy ok first of all the latest news.. I brought a New Bike.. A Bullet Thunderbird.. and i swear this bike rocks.. 350 CC and comfortable seating plan thouh i am still keeping my old bike which if you dont know is CBZ another good bike but then the condition is not so good after having uncountable accidents.. and one complete operation of engine but still the bikes Zooom and i love my bike for that... Bullet is not a racing kindda bike but then there is difference kindda adventure in it driving a cruiser bike.. i cannot drive it fast as bullet is not ment to be driven fast ..... but there is different kind of pleasure driving the bike constantly at 50-60 KMPH and the sound just don ask...

 

Another News i brought a PDA Ipaq 5500 series with biometric scanner which scans my fingerprints.. completly loaded with WinCE 2003 and bluetooth, WiFi, Fingerprint scanner and god knows what all .. havnt tried to screw it as this is very new but as the time passes will look into detail of the PDA as of now the only good thing about it is that it is Touch Screen ... and there is a game that i love to play all the time.

 

Ok back to the topic ... lolz.. i alwayse wanted to try something different with myself tried long hairs... tried short hairs... got bald... wore a earing ( got rid of it way long back :) ) recently i wanted to have mustache... lolz i know this sounds funny but yaah  wanted to have a mustache. last sunday after growing my beard for a week i shaved and kept the mustache.. hehehe i know i am looking funny in it.... but then a long time dream comming true though i dunno for how long i am gonna keep it but i think atleast couple of week more... cause mom alwayse yells at me to get rid of it... same goes for my frnds many says get rid of it but some says ... its looks Ok ... but then have told mom that this gonna be a small phase and i'll get rid of it very soon so i have another 2 weeks or so to enjoy them.. lolz looking awkawardly diff lolz.. neways its 11 in the night and i have to go for food ... will update my blog once i get cleaned shaved as well as of know i have uploaded my newly pics with mustache so any of you visitin my blog do check out and temme is it looking weired or OK lolz.. then by the end of 2 week i'll upload my new pics with 2 weeks old mustache.. till then folks take care and tada

 

Lucky